Yes it's nearly 5 in the morning and I am just getting ready for bed. Yeah, I've been a complete night owl for quite a while now. It certainly has it advantages: I can do my homework in peace, I am not bothered or distracted by anything, internet runs so much faster, and I love sitting out on my patio stargazing when the moon is not too bright.
I am mostly writing this journal to apologize to my watcher for not producing too many photographs at all these last couple of months. Between my depression, my boyfriends depression, family arguments, and homework I just haven't had a chance to go out and do what I do. I miss it for sure, and I am sure my camera is becoming dusty inside of its bag. I'm not quite sure what do here now. I think I am going to start bringing my camera with to my boyfriends when I spend the night. The mountains, sunrises, and sunsets around his property are just amazing.
I've been watching Bob Ross on PBS Create
lately lol. He makes me think I could be a painter
. Though I do not have paint supplies around, I do have
good quality colored pencils (yay! prismacolor!), and some decent soft and oil pastels, charcoal pencils, watercolor pencils, and sketching pencil. Perhaps, I could try my hand at some of Bob's painting with the supplies I do have. I know it won't be the same since he is using oil paint but meh it will give me something productive to do. I also have a bunch of yarn and some unfinished crochet projects sitting around, maybe I can start working on those again.
I'm just trying to stay busy and keep up with some sort of creative process. I legitimately miss my photography but I really am not sure when I will be able to get out and explore the near by national parks and wildlife refuges. I don't exactly want to replace my photography but rather keep doing something creative betwen my shoots. I am pretty sure my family is planning a trip to Death Valley next week, but we'll see. I haven't been getting along with them too well the last couple of months. If I could move out, I would.
Also for those of you have read my last journal, here is a little bit of an update. My boyfriend is doing much better. I am not too worried about him hurting himself now. I think he just needed a bit of a reminder that he has friends and family that are there for him. He is just keeping focused on getting bachelors degree at the moment. I figure once our homework load settles down a bit I'll treat him to a day (well more like an hour or two) at the shooting range, as well as a good back scratch, dinner, and movies. That should definitely cheer him up if he is not feeling cheery already.